“I want you. I know I’m a mess but I want you,” she says. “I want to see you every morning, and I want to make you a snack every night. And eventually I want to have your little brown babies, and I want to watch you die.” Charlie sighs, “That’s all I ever wanted to hear.” Girls - Together (S2E10)
It’s really funny to think of where you were and where you are now; where you’ll be and if it’ll ever be the same. Maybe it doesn’t need to be the same and maybe it’s better off that way. The little things you hold on to- the things you swear you can’t live without. Things are just things and things are replaceable. Love the life you live. Everything falls in...
I grew up having other people make decisions for me and I’ve always relied on other people to depend on; all the while, rebelling whenever I could for no real reason at all- maybe to test my own limits and see how strong and independent I can be. For as long as I can remember, I’ve never been my own person. Even now, I’m still as indecisive and lost as I’ve ever been. I...
Sometimes, when I am at my wit’s end, I find that I am the only one to blame. I spend far too much time in the deepest depths of my brain, alone with my thoughts, and more often than not I can’t pull myself back out. I ambush myself with all of my worries and what ifs and I don’t pay enough mind to what’s in front of me. I wish I could be as strong as the front that I put...
I just want to wash all of my worries away; be happy and mean it.
Be hopeful and stay positive.
Today, among every other day but most importantly today, I owe it to myself to turn the other cheek and smile. I knew it would come, eventually; it was inevitable. I knew it would hurt. I knew it would hurt like hell. Being sad and feeling sorry for myself isn’t going to fix anything. So what I’ll try to do is be happy. I’ll take into consideration everything else in my life...
I don’t want to live my life with any regrets. And I wont.
Just try and stop me now. I’m destined for greatness!
Enough is enough. If I had always listened to my gut instincts then I would never be in the position that I am in now. I need to conquer this mole hill because that’s all it is and that’s all it ever will be. If I only knew where to start.
Some days, I wish I could just take all the fucks I give and put them in my basket of who the hell cares.
I’m on track to reinventing myself; putting aside what I feel everyone else expects of me and putting myself first. I just can’t be so careless anymore. I need to re-establish faith in myself to be able to accomplish what I need to and stick to my priorities. I can’t depend on anyone else this time. It may be a painfully slow, uphill battle but it’s what I need to do and...
I feel so sick to my stomach and so numb at the same time. So blatantly caught up in the middle of my own worst nightmare.
“When she was just a girl, she expected the world. But it flew away from her reach, so she ran away in her sleep. Dreamed of paradise every time she closed her eyes.”
For years, I’ve been competing with myself trying to find the “better me”. I think it’s time I give myself a break. I shouldn’t be working this hard to impress myself or anyone else, for that matter. I’m good enough.
You win some and you lose some. And in the cases where you lose, always know that there’s a bigger win coming your way. Or so I tell myself?
I’m a mess up there. I don’t even know what to think of anything.
In your eyes, I see the eyes of somebody I knew before; long, long, long ago. But I’m still trying to make my mind up. Am I free or am I still tied up? I’d change shapes just to hide in this place. But I’m still, I’m still…
I am so grateful to the people I have in my life right now, who genuinely care about me. The people who actively make sure that I’m okay and even if I’m not, they’re there to make sure I’m not okay… with company. Whether it be temporary, because who knows who you can trust and depend on anymore, or not… I’m so glad I am not alone. People are full of...
Slipping away from me.
I always wonder why I put myself through what I do. I think that if I weren’t so indecisive and actually knew what I wanted, I wouldn’t find myself in these kinds of situations. Part of me seeks out these problems only to have something to fix. Maybe it is because I can never settle for consistency. I’ve got some crazy belief that every moment that I am living should be lived....
There are so many people who inspire and encourage me to be the best I can be, but the only person who can get me to where I need to be is myself.
If there’s anything that I have learned from my mother, it would have to be… being cautious. Always question everything and always consider the “what if”s. This is why I don’t know how to ride a bike or how to swim. Can’t live and appreciate your life if you’re always scared. You’ll never get your money’s worth, so to speak, if you’re...